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FanFic100: 100 Tales

100 Tales

December 2005: I claimed this table in FF100 with the intention of writing 100 drabbles or ficlets about Gondolin.

December 2012: SEVEN FRIGGING YEARS LATER years later, I've written...nine.

In an earnest attempt to develop a more regular writing habit, I am going to reinstate this table, but will be eliminating the Gondolin restriction. These prompts will hopefully cover a wide variety of fandoms, or may even include original writing outside of any fandoms.  Here's to hoping there will be more stories, however small, in 2013.
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Happy birthay, ysilme! I am so glad that you've become such an active and present participant in Tolkien fandom! You always bring such a positive and supportive attitude to all that you do, and I am terribly grateful for it! I'm so glad to know you! Hope the day has brought you much joy, and that the coming year brings you all that you wish for!

Dearest spiced_wine! Oh, I am so sorry to be slow on the draw for your birthday, but here I am, and Voronwë with me, belatedly wishing you all the best. You are such a dear heart and your presence in fandom has made it a better, brighter place. I am honored to know you, and so grateful for your kindness and support over the years. You are a wonderful friend, and hope that the year brings you all the peace and happiness you deserve!


Ever tried. Ever failed.

No matter. Try Again. Fail again. Fail better

I'm clinging to that Beckett quote right now, because I feel like I am awash in failure. I have failed to complete the Snowflake Challenge; I have failed to write daily; I'm about to fail to meet a deadline for a ficlet exchange; and I feel like I'm failing daily at work, even though my mid-year appraisal was quite positive.

It isn't for lack of desire, I just lose all motivation when I come home. I'm mentally and physically exhausted all the time. And it doesn't help that P. routinely gets 2am...3am...4am calls from security at LACMA because the #&$*%& Rain Room is malfunctioning and overflowing the catch tank. That fucking thing is running through April because everyone loves it so much. Except for P. and I. It isn't actually art, it's psychological torture.

Am nearly done with The Medici Boy. Enjoying it for the most part-- the writing is quite lovely, but it does suffer from some historical info dumps, and I am reminded now that First Person can be very tricky to do well. At least I'm reading something. My mental exhaustion has made it hard to concentrate on fiction since I moved out west.

I want to do the Fic Stats Meme that heartofoshun and moetushie posted, but that feels like cheating, since I didn't finish the Snowflake Challenge. Sigh.


I posted this picture of Bowie from "Blackstar" over on Instagram 3 days ago but didn't share it here. But what I said over there bears repeating today: I am held in awe by this man who continue[d] to take artistic risks with no fear of crashing and burning, no fear of flying too close to the sun. He [was] a living incarnation of art, and I doubt I will see his kind again in my lifetime. Again, I am reminded that the key to aging well is to keep exploring, keep reaching, to stay creative and curious. I described "Lazarus," my favorite track from Blackstar to @theanthy as "viciously autobiographical and otherworldly at the same time... A man coming to terms with all of his incarnations." Now the song speaks to us as his farewell. He was always three steps ahead of us.

I am shocked to find myself grieving harder over a rockstar I never knew than over uncle Bill, but as Patrick put it, I logged more hours with Bowie.

I knew I would lose all my idols over time; I didn't expect it to be so hard.


Look up here, I’m in heaven
I’ve got scars that can’t be seen
I’ve got drama, can’t be stolen
Everybody knows me now.

Oh I’ll be free
Just like that bluebird
Oh I’ll be free
Ain’t that just like me

Fandom Snowflake Challenge - Day 9

Day 9 - in your own space, set some goals for the coming year. They can be fannish or not, public or private.

I'm going to keep it to writing goals. I have some work and riding-related goals as well, but I don't really feel like thinking about them at the moment. :(

- Finish my re-write of Ionnath-Estel! For the love of god, I'm going to wrap that sonofabitch up if it KILLS me!

- Write every day. Even if it's just a sentence. See Day 6 challenge.

- Make progress on my non-fandom writing: the Southern Gothic piece, the Elvish/Fae fantasy piece, or the historical fiction I've been threatening people with for nearly a decade. Maybe I'll start posting the fragments I have for both of them and, as keiliss suggested, maybe that will spur some discussion that will help them take shape. I don't think either of them will be ready for a true workshop environment in a year, but if I can at least keep chipping away at it, maybe their real forms will begin to reveal themselves to me. (This will be under a strict filter! I will solicit potentially interested readers soon...)

Fandom Snowflake Challenge - Day 7 & 8

Still a day late and a dollar short! (3, if you count that I still haven't done days 3 & 4!)

Whatevs, man. Onward.

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Day 7

In your own space, share a favorite piece of original canon (a TV episode, a song, a favorite interview, a book, a scene from a movie, etc) and explain why you love it so much. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

Oh, but there's just so much to love!! I've been focusing really heavily on Tolkien lately, so for this particular challenge, I'm going to go in a different direction. One of my absolute favorite pieces of original canon is the infamous Chapter 6 of Mary Renault's The Charioteer-- aka "The Party Scene."

Renault's writing is generally subtle, but in this scene-- a Big Gay Birthday Bash in WWII England -- we get EVERYTHING: incredibly vivid scene-setting; the critical re-introduction of two main characters after a long separation wherein one believed the other to be dead; introductions to extremely colorful secondary characters; some absolutely amazing Queen Bitchery, vicious Camp, rent boys, gossip... and, frankly, some blatant contempt for flamboyantly Gay men. But however one reads it... OH! To have been a fly on the wall for this party!

Favorite sections below the cut:

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As for Day 8, I saw someone's entry on the Day 7 master post about their mixed feelings about a problematic fandom-- trying to remain in love with Diana Gabaldon & Outlander after her CRAZYPANTS [and now deleted] rant about how fanfic is rape-- and I went over to their DW journal to engage in a discussion about how I, too, suffer from this ambivalence. I still haven't forgiven DG for being such a horrific cow about it. That counts, right? I just interacted with someone new!

Fandom Snowflake Challenge - Day 6

Day 6

In your own space, create your own challenge. What’s something you want to see more people doing in fandom? Is there something you’ve tried that you think other people would enjoy if they gave it a go? Dare your friends to try it out, and have fun with it.

I'm going to steal (and minimize) a chapter from the getyourwordsout community and put forth this challenge: Get Your [something] Out!

Every day, I challenge you to write something. Anything. No word count goal, no big ambitions, anything will so: A single sentence. A fragment of dialog. A list of characters you would like to write about. A vague idea for a story. A line that you think would make a great title for something. A bunch of unrelated words that you think are beautiful or powerful or evocative that you would like to incorporate into something else someday. It needn't have anything to do with anything you are working on-- just find some words and get them out.

If you are an artist, pick your medium and do something with it: sketch the most inchoate thumbnail. Slap some paint on a paper in a pallette of colors that appeals to you. Find a study photograph that inspires you. Take the smallest of steps toward creating something larger.

If you are a reviewer, think of a story you been meaning to review and just jot down some adjectives that the story brought to mind. You can formulate a thorough review later-- for now, just think of the story and what it brought to mind.

If you are a vidder, list a couple of songs that inspire you, or make a list of movies/episodes/characters that you'd like to incorporate. If you're really inspired, list some specific scenes you'd like to use in your next work.

Whatever your creative medium, take a baby step EVERY DAY. Some days, you may be prepared to take giant leaps, to write your entire NaNo story in an hour. Some days, you may just need to make a single line on the paper. It's a start. It's enough.

Here's mine from yesterday, which has absolutely nothing to do with anything:

The night they burned the fields, the sun melted low across the edge of the earth like it might have set the fire itself, outraged at the coming of night. Families gathered on their porches to watch the billowing black smoke. The children ran like feral dogs, whooping and hollering, excited at being allowed to stay up past their bedtimes, taking advantage of their parents' distraction. Some of the women cried, but did so softly, damping their tears in their aprons and not making a sound. The men, some of them, clustered around their last bottles of spirits to drown their sorrows. Others stood alone, bitter-lipped and rock-jawed, and watched their crops devoured by the flames.

Fandom Snowflake Challenge 2016 - Day 5

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Day 5

Leave feedback for a fanwork. Or multiple fanworks. It can be as simple as I liked this to a detailed list of all the things you loved about the fanwork. The key is to leave some sort of feedback.

If you've already left feedback in the course of a previous challenge, it totally counts. But you're free to leave more feedback.

Afterwards, leave a comment in this post with the equivalent of "I did it!" If you feel so inclined, leave a link to the fanwork you left feedback for so others can check it out.

I'm back to work this week, so my feedback has been, by necessity, brief and to the point rather than as effusive as I would have liked, so it seems a little tragic just to post a series of tiny OMG SQUEES!, so here is a brief list of things I have read and [very briefly] remarked on in the last week or so:

vulgarweed's The Reason for the Season (Good Omens)

lynndyre's exquisite Silm artwork Finrod vs the Werewolf of Sauron (Silm)

koulagirl666's Débutants (Silm; my SESA gift fic!)

moetushie's Rise Up With Fists (Silm; My gift Trick-or-Treat fic!)

heartofoshun's Perhaps Not Perfect (The Last of the Wine)